I have a confession...

...it is eight months since Doo and I parted and I have to introduce you to my new friend. I suppose you may call him a boyfriend, though there are sixteen years difference between us.

Boog is my ex partner (we are talking 6 odd years ago before Doo and I fell in Love). We had a tumultous relationship and I take my 50% of responsibility as it takes two to tango after all. I was a lot younger back then and I have learnt so much over the years. A lot of which I owe to Doo for I always called him (and always will) my Knight In Shining Blue. It was Doo who literally (and metaphorically) saved my life. For that I will always be truly thankful. However he cannot hold that against me for the rest of my life, otherwise we will have no future, as friends (or otherwise).

Boog has run a successful company with his business partner, and close friend, for seventeen years now. He is out going and the life and soul of a party, though even he will admit sometimes he can do that too often. I was dubious getting back in contact with him after so many years crossing the street to avoid him, and after our relationship ended so badly. In fact it was Boog who got back in contact with me.

It was a complete surprise and utterly romantic, something that had been missing from my life for quite a while. It was as though he had read my mind. The thing with Boog is that we are on the same page on a lot of things. For example, we both support and encourage each others ideas and dreams no matter how outrageous or out of reach they may be. He can go from spending £1000 on a lavish weekend of champagne with the finest food and entertainment, to spending £10 on a traditional dinner, a bottle of wine and watching the good old British soaps on TV after enjoying a long walk or swim in the local lagoon.

I will never close the book on Doo, and no one will ever replace him as Younglings father. But until he accepts me for who I am, and for his part in the breakdown of our relationship, we can but share niceties on the exchange of Youngling. Id rather that than constant arguing any day.

I do not expect anyone to understand how I can be with someone else so soon after recent events with Doo, I do not understand it myself some days. But I do know this, Boog makes me smile and laugh so hard that I get cramp in my side. He knows to give me a cuddle without any prompting from me when I drift off with my thoughts. I know that I can never intentionally go out and meet someone knew and have to explain my past, my current situation, Youngling and hopes for the future. To me that is impossible. I just know that when Boog and I spend a few days together (when Youngling is staying with Daddy Doo) I never know what will happen or what we'll do. We always seem to have an adventure in one way shape or form.

Me and Boog at the big turn on.

So there you have it, now everyone knows. You can think what you like but at least I have been honest. I cannot change myself for anyone any more. you only need to read my latest posts to see that I am getting back to myself by going to the theatre, reading and writing again to see that.

I wish Doo every health and happiness and who knows what the future brings for all of us. I cannot hide myself and my life from everyone anymore. I was brought up with lies and I refuse to to let history repeat itself.

So there you have it. The truth is unraveled.

Do take care,
Kate
xx