Being more Christian or just being good?

We are only just into the second month of the year and I am already trying to complete my list of '12 Things To Do in 2012'. One of that list was to be a better Christian.

I didn't go to Church today due my cold (I don't think God would appreciate me infecting his congregation). Though I didn't attend the service I still found myself thinking of God.

Last week I spoke to a few members of my Church congregation. In amongst our natterings we discussed my running the local Sunday School which we are currently trying to advertise. I also mentioned that I would like to do a reading one Sunday. Whether that be of my own works or one of the Gospels, I don't mind.

I discussed my poetry with one lady in particular and after agreeing that it would make a nice addition to the Parish New's Magazine I sent her an email with a couple of samples.

Although I feel pleased with this small step towards improving my faith and strengthening my bond within the Church I cannot help but feel this is just a 'good' step forward. I don't think I can go as far as to say this makes me a 'better' Christian. Perhaps this is just one stepping stone to crossing the river of my faith. Perhaps I may never feel a good enough Christian.

I feel I have a long way to go on improving myself and my faith. Some days I feel lost but today I feel found. Like I am home. Today is a very good day.

Take care

Kate

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